First, I hope that everyone had a joyous holiday however you choose to celebrate it. I would also like to say thank you to the followers I have gained in my short time here. I hope you will continue to support me.
Dawnies, this is the time of year we stop to think about our past, present, and future. We tend to focus on our lives as it has played out this year. For me, I spend much time focusing on my past before 2019, 2019, hell 1998. Something I have learned finally is that I have never let go. All of it remains with me to this day. All the pain and suffering from illness, grief, betrayal, and mistrust lingers within me. Now, I have finally found that I am my own worst enemy. What should I do about it?
Me vs. Me
One thing I have decided is that my goal will remain the same. I want to bring about a newer and better me, not just in 2020, but beyond. Spending so much of my time discussing and wondering about how things others have done affects me ends today. The bottom line is I will not become who I am meant to be if I don’t begin with me. I can no longer worry about what others have or have not done. As hard as this may be, I will never get a truer me without the release.
I must move beyond a state of division, doubt, and confusion. Wrapping it up inside of a large box, placing it inside of the trunk of my car, driving to the nearest cliff, walking to the edge, and releasing it with a smile is an order of mine. Moving forward to all things new, clear, content, and free.
I cannot be ruled by love and duty. I must begin to do what’s best for me. As for now, what’s best for me is to love me beyond all. After, there will be room for everyone else. By loving me first, I can let go and walk through any valley or shadow and come out clear on the other side. Forward and logical thinking will be within my grasp.
Logic will not block out my spiritual journey but help improve my relationship with my creator. I wish all of you nothing but the best in the coming year. If you are struggling, remember, we are our own worst enemies so only we can set our minds and bodies free. Seek freedom for you as I will for me. May you all prosper, maintain and gain all the success this planet has to offer.
I love and appreciate you all. See you in 2020 Dawnies!